O Wow

Wow, so Hi,

Haven't been on here in quite a while, I miss blogging about the normal things I do like drawing and writing and such. I've just become to enveloped in school and studying and work I hardly have time to sit here and open myself up to my blog. I am feeling a lot better now, mentally but not physically lol, I'm currently sick with a throat infection :(, and my lovely partner has a respiratory tract infection. I'm very sad that I won't be able to talk to her all week, as she's not allowed to use her voice and she will be resting in bed. I will be quite lonely, Hum, I need a sport or friends. I just realised how sad my life is without Gemma <3. :( I wish I had a group of friends or a friend who I could go and stay at their house when i wanted and it wouldn't be weird, it would be comfortable. That used to be one of my friends, but she changed and I changed heaps so yeah, last time I stayed, it just wasn't comfortable for me, I felt silly being there. Just made me realise how much we have grown apart and how much we have lost.

Wow, this sounds quite depressing for a happy post. haha I'll have you know I swear I got a good mark today on my speech. I'm very excited to see what I got. Don't you hate it when you expect something to be good and you think it's going to be good, and then they shut you down completely and you just stand there like a rejected fool? Yeah, that's me at this very moment.lol, ah my throat hurts so much.

I don't even know what I want at the moment, I think of things that upset me, certain personal things that upset me and personal things I wish I had, not materialistic, just things to do with feelings and stuff like what I want in things, and I feel like im numb or in this stale spot in life. Like in school and with my friends. I just feel heaps independant, and unfriendly. Like I can't relate to anyone at the moment and I think it's because everyone is finally starting to figure out who they are. I think I am still realising who I am, they say your personality changes and only sets in stone when your 25. I'm 18 now by the way. Had an amazing party with my friends. Well the few I trust. And it was fun. :)

The year 12 formal is soon and I'm pretty excited, I have my dress and shoes, so I'm all ready to go :D just need to get my extensions for my hair, and get my new makeup. Ill put pics of Gemma and I up after September 23rd. :D Looking forward to updating more. :]
xx