Everyone is Sick

So, Today was uneventful, I'm sick also and so is my partner, as I'd mentioned in my last post. I'm feeling a bit socially deprived lol. I'm about to play super smash bros...I had waited about 3 hours since I just said that last sentence and left my blog so I could come back and write more. I cleaned my room, and played just dance and we filmed it aswell, we are silly. Lol Thought it would be funny Haha...even though I feel worse now... :( lol.


Ahh I miss socialisation with people who actually want to know you and are interested in you. All my friends are too comfortable and hardly come see me. They're selfish and stubborn too, something I am not so I suppose that doesn't really help us get along. Hm, I did my English speech yesterday and went really well. I'm feeling pretty crappy because I lost two followers on tumblr. :'( Meaning they weren't interested in my blog anymore. This is where I post all of my personal stuff, on Tumblr I post all of my funny fan art pictures and silly things. Ah well, I suppose they got sick of me. Still, rejection in it's smallest form does affect me and nothing will change that. I wish I had a friend who could come stay over whenever they wanted, and it would be okay for both of us, or a friend who would randomely drop by and I wouldn't care if I had makeup on or not because they don't judge me. A friend who would spend the night without it being awkward, and we could do nothing and have fun. I miss that. I've lost alot of those friends. Suppose we change and grow apart, I just need to get away from this area and find friends who are into being academic and studious, and having intellectual and philosophical conversations...you know, friends who you can talk deep with and talk about feelings and meanings together without them criticsizing you and being awkward about anything. I guess all I want is a real best friend, why does that seem so impossible at 18 years old? Ah well. I hope it comes soon, I feel lonely every day.